# 19:00 Today isn't the best day for me. I am feeling pretty sad, and have cried a bit. I find Jonas difficult. I want the best for him, yet I don't know how to be a good parent. I feel I have failed him. I try to teach him right and wrong, yet he continues to do things that are not right. Now it is is magic mushroom infused chocolate. I guess I should feel lucky that it isn't something worse like cocaine. I just cannot help but feel it will only be a matter of time before he try's something more. # 19:30 I had a talk with Jonas. I feel much better now. It is good that we can talk openly together.