### 08:00 Today is the day. Kate's birthday card will get posted today. It will probably take a week or two to arrive. Then we will see if I get shouted at 😁. No, I don't really want to get shouted at. So far I really like writing this journal. It is a nice thing to do. I think it is really helping me. It helps me to express myself. This might also be one of the things that was too much for Kate. I did write quite a lot. It was probably to much to read anyway. This is probably better for everyone. I'll share a little bit about my motivations around my friendship with Kate. It will also answer some questions. I wanted a really good friend that I could talk to whom isn't my wife. I am not sharing my wife's name. It is very unique for the UK. From a personal data point of view, it is probably not good idea to share it. Yes, my intentions were purely honourable. I love my wife very much, but it is nice to have other people in your life to share with too. I think I fit into that category of men that don't really maintain relationships with other people once you move on, or change jobs. This is very common in men. When you get a bit older, you realise that you have very few people in your life. There have been so many people that I have lost touch with, that I wish I hadn't. My wife has a few really good friends that she always keeps in touch with. It does make me sad that I don't have that. So, I have been trying really hard to make some new friends that I really want to keep in touch with. Honestly, it is really hard. I was hopeful that Kate would be one of those. I put so much effort in, but at this point in time, it feels like it won't work out. We'll see in time. I know she really does have her own issues to deal with at the moment. I do have some guy friends from my current job too. I am trying with them too. Relationship building is hard and very time consuming. When things don't work, it feels like a kick in the teeth. I do now realise that having other people to talk to is really beneficial for mental wellbeing. I mentioned the other day about joining that Facebook hiking group. I hope that helps me as well. We'll see how things go. What concerns me with that, is that the people on there seem to go out in big groups. I am not sure I'll cope well with that. The bigger the group, the harder I find it to interact. ### 14:00 The Birthday card for Kate has been posted. I hope she likes it. It even has some special stamps on it. ### 21:00 Finally managed to eat dinner. I had to run a few errands for my youngest. I can sit and relax a bit now. Not too long. The dogs need a quick evening walk.