### 09:00 I gave Mrs. Chris a hug this morning. I got told pretty quickly that she didn't need it. Ugh. She is a cause of many of my frustrations. I wonder when she will next tell me she loves me. It seems to be years between occurrences. I am not a bad person. I try really hard. It also appears I forgot to check my Hello Fresh order yesterday. That means it will be a pot luck order. Ugh. I have also booked my Easter weekend away. Nobody wanted to come with me, so I will be In the Brecon Beacons on my own. At least the new Andrew Hastie - Eschaton audio book will be out to keep me company. The Infinity Engines series is brilliant. I just hope it doesn't get delayed. ### 16:00 I think I have had enough of being treated like shit. She is a nice person. She just seems to lack the ability to show any kind of affection. ### 17:00 I almost left for Wales. But, I had no plans or any idea what to do. I did pack all my camping gear (tent etc). Mrs. Chris did agree to face to face counselling. I am not so sure that will help. I need to feel loved, yet she says she cannot do that.