# 08:00 My train journey was good today. No delays. Ellie is in the cafe again. It is nice to see her. She always seems happy. That is better than me. I think I need to call the mental health people. I do have a few ups and downs. I need to work out how to manage the downs a bit better. Usually I feel pretty good on office days. Maybe it will improve later. # 13:00 It feels weird. I am not feeling London today. It is too busy and too loud. I feel a longing for the Lake District and isolation again. But, on the other hand I feel like another person to talk to. Does that make any sense? Maybe it is like wanting some quality time to talk with someone, without the sensory overload of the city. This is the first time back in London since my trip. Even Ellie thought I looked a bit off today. Nice of her to ask. She even gave me two free coffee's. I just hope she is just being nice, and not because she wants anything. I don't want to get myself in trouble. The mental health people have come back to me and asked me to book an appointment. That feels good. Maybe I don’t need to call the work mental health people now. I think I am going to listen to “The Long Earth” books again. I love the concept of being transported to a whole world without anyone.